Kate and I were walking the rocks along the Australian coast today...and to get out to the place I wanted to go to take pictures, it involved walking along this narrow path--about 2ft wide between two salt water lap pools. I was good, until suddenly I felt this surge of anxiety that left me stuck in place. I ended up needing grasp Kate's hand to continue moving. Not sure what made me freeze...if I had fallen, I would have just landed in the pool on either side...
What really caught me, was the thoughts...they were about forgiveness. I started thinking about the situation with my parents, the need to forgive them for not being perfect, the need to forgive myself for the same. There has always been something about the ocean that has caused me pause. I said to Kate, it is as though I am standing at the edge of the world. You could look at it as though, there is no where to go but back, but I never do. As I stood there watching the waves crash upon the rocks, I was filled with a sense of calm. Peace.
More later.
