Yesterday as I was driving to Hanover, I found myself looking out over the valleys thru the fog to the colorful trees and rising sun over the water and it clicked. I've been stuck in this cycle for way too long. This fog will also burn off as it has before, despite those moments where it appears so dense I can barely see through it.
It happens sometimes when life becomes overwhelming and I lose sight of what it is I want in life. I give into the negativity that swirls around in my head and the volume gets louder, the longer I allow it to be in control. I need to detach from myself and in so doing, will improve the situations around me. I am at my best when I am not listening to the negative self talk and giving in to the fear and anxiety it brings. The reality is, I am not really in control anyway.
I have taken some steps to begin taking better care of myself--exercising again, paying closer attention to diet restrictions, and picked up the book on codependency I was reading earlier this summer. I was more effective when these things were in the forefront of my mind.
My life is more than getting an A in every class I take. Mastery is not perfection.
