floating

On break from class...going through some old emails, etc (cleaning out).  Found this piece I wrote about a year ago...

Two pieces of a larger whole, edges worn and frayed.
Now woven together, new strengths emerge.
A common thread binds two, so seemingly opposite.
Amidst the darkness of each solitary past,
There is new light, with comfort in the shadows.
Where judgement resides, but is not felt.

Old patterns, which no longer fit--
the push and pull of life, driven by fear--
threaten the integrity of the stitching.

Yet, the fibers of the pairing now so intertwined,
the taring apart would be beyond repair.
Together there is comfort in this, a mutual appreciation.
A knowing that maintains the fabric.

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I need to get my feet back on the ground, practice mindfulness, and re-focus.  Sorting out who/what is important and prioritize wants and needs.  Demands and expectations (mostly self imposed) have taken quite the toll over the last few months.  Anxiety is in full swing--dry heaving in the shower, stomach is a wreck after eating, not sleeping.  

Trying to remember to stretch and breathe, making movement towards being able to exercise again.  Wish meditation were effective--but amps up the anxiety.  May try to write more here (those that have this emailed to you--if you want that to stop, email me back and let me know, I will adjust the setting).