My head has been a disaster the last few days. In a self-loathing kind of mood. I suppose there are a number of factors surrounding this...hormones, stress, working too much, being overtired, etc. Regardless of the reasons, I am having great difficulty shaking it off. My head is heavy with fragments of random thoughts...
Disconnected and distant from the people who mean the most to me.
Overwhelmed and underappreciated.
Frustrated but not feeling justified in why.
Needing to feel grounded.
Wanting to take better care of myself but not having the motivation to do it.
you get the idea.
I Know much of these things are not based in reality. Knowing, meaning wise mid. But the problem is that I am so stuck in emotion mind right now, that I am having trouble seeing the truth. The facts that disprove the fun house thinking going on inside my head. I am not used to talking about this stuff, aside from with a select one or two people. I have try to be a better listener than talker.
I am somewhat hopeful that the weather is decent this weekend and I can do to the beach or something. The waves always soothe me. Help me find perspective.
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