A return to reason

"It's the way he hates you. It's so...familiar" ... "Maybe he just sees me as I really am." -- Mockingjay

I finally finished this book tonight. My head (as previously mentioned) has been a disaster as of late, so reading has been out of the question--though, probably would have been better, safer, for me. When these waves hit me, they are somewhat similar to the episodes Peeta experiences in the final book. Memories that make him pause, asking, "Real or Not Real".

Sometimes I wonder if it be better to just lock myself away until the wave passes, come out for public appearances, but otherwise cut me off from the rest of the world. No phone, no email, nothing. I cause damage in these times. Upset the balance of things, too caught up in what is Not Real. To do this is not realistic, however. I must learn to bring myself back more quickly. To play the game. Find out what is real--before I become hijacked by my emotions.

Real.
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