an open letter to a-

I wasn't planning on you. I'd prepared myself for being alone until I moved back to Portland. And then you came into my life and turned everything upside-down. I guess that means it's true what they say--as soon as you stop looking you find what you were looking for. Hopefully I am what you were looking for too.

There's so much more I want to say...but can't. Not without getting too far ahead of myself and possibly saying too much. I still worry that I will push you away, so I hold back. And probably will for a long time. Until I know it's safe. Unitl I know you're in the same place. Which I can only hope that some day you will. And until then, I wait. And hope.

-k