First off...typing from my phone so I make no promises about punctuation...so to all of my red penned grammar loving readers...might just want to skip this one. ;)
We are in PA for the weekend. Kate's grandfather died on Monday. Today was the wake. Even Kate's aunt and cousin from Alaska flew in for it--he was there with his wife...who no one knew existed. But still easier to swallow for the people paying their respects than Kate introducing me as her partner. Granted Kate's family is used to it and truly does love and accept me--and this is what I am reminding myself repeatedly even as I write this--but we are in small town America here...I saw the faces. Certainly there were those who took it on stride and were fine--but then there were the others. I tried not to let it bother me...practice my teflon mind...but I was tired from the trip, hungry, and already emotionally drained from the week. So I can't say it didn't get to me as the night wore on.
I know that is lack of exposure mixed with religious belief--i can't blame anyone for that. Kate and her mother are quite well known in town...I wonder how this will affect Carol now that the secret is out and I am no longer "Kate's friend from NH".
Tomorrow is a new day. Going to bed now--technically already there (Kate is lightly snoring beside me)--so to be somewhat refreshed for tomorrow. Hopefully lightning doesn't strike when I go up for my reading. ;)
Seriously though, taking my own advice...checking the gremlin, not taking things personally, and being mindful.
God is walking with me in this place and I am loved.
Peace
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