Agreements with Self

Yesterday I wrote about perfection.  Asking myself, what have I lost in my quest for perfection.  In that stream of thought, I talked about being disabled.  Being disabled makes it impossible for me to be perfect, based on an ideal.

Today I opened the 5th Agreement, to read the following, ["What about someone who is physically disabled?  Is that person perfect?" Well according to what you know, that person may be imperfect, but is what you know the truth?]  Certainly caused me to pause.  I even read the passage to Kate and reminded her of the blog from night before. 

I've said before that I do not believe in coincidences.  In fact, I have gone so far as to say that when these things happen to me (which is happening more and more frequently), it is in some what God's way if getting my attention.

The four agreements are as follows:

1. Be impeccable with your word
2. Don't take things personally
3. Don't make assumptions
4. Always do your best

I have not been very good at maintaining these...particularly with myself.  I am better when being impeccable toward others. But with myself, hardly.  2-4 are not  much better--I measure myself against ideals that I can and will never meet...nor should I.  These are not realistic--the mirrors I stare into--are clouded, streaked with the views of others, not truths.

There is now a fifth one...but, I will save that for you to discover for yourself....

.however with this i am also not very good.

I need to take it easier on myself.  I need to see myself as fabulous--as a beautiful patchwork quilt.