Through the Cracks

As the darkness rolls in--consuming
my mind reels from a past I've wanted to forget
from which I have tried to run away
yet I know I cannot run forever,
so instead I erect a wall
to block out the memories--the pain
I keep this wall up, thinking I will hurt less
be hurt less, that no one needs to know me
there are some though
that have peered through the cracks
and even scaled the divide
to these few, I hold on dearly
afraid of them walking away,
leaving me,
alone.